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Seeing No Hope
Thinking I have dealt with the pain
I have become aware that I have not
It resurfaces and starts all over again

Hating the horrid words I have spoken
There is no way to ever take them back
I feel alone and and discusted, so broken

Feeling no compassion for anyone.
My heart has hardend once again
Alone in This world I want to run.
I feel the evilness surrounding me
The darkness overshadows the good.
Alone again, no hope can I see?

Will I ever be free of this anger?
I battle the horrible anger within
To everyone I have becone a stranger

I know to harber anger is wrong
This is not acceptable to God
In this world I don't belong

Overwhelmed with so much guilt
In this darkness I see no way out.
I can't face what I have been dealt

In my heart I know I have sinned
This is the truth I realize
I am guilty I am condemned

I know God is not happy with me
I have Thought and done evil things
How can The One True God forgive me?

I could say I'm sorry and be forgiven
But I am afraid that I will fail again
What if I fall back into that old sin.

The pressure builds at the end of my rope
Uncontrolled anger raging from within
My world is dark I don't see any hope


Betty Barnard